Self-lies overtaking,
Sabotage in the making.
Externalizes pain with excuses
Looking for distractions
To avoid fear,
To avoid abuse sensation.
Harsh control of childhood-will,
Result – procrastination.
Cognitive behavior, little self-regulation
Squandering Life participation.
Let your tears Love,
Inspire emotional transformation.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB
Science of Being 
Lovely!