Self-lies overtaking,
Sabotage in the making.
Externalizes pain with excuses
Looking for distractions
To avoid fear,
To avoid abuse sensation.
Harsh control of childhood-will,
Result – procrastination.
Cognitive behavior, little self-regulation
Squandering Life participation.
Let your tears Love,
Inspire emotional transformation.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB
Science of Being 
this was a great read!
We spend so much time avoiding fear. With a bit of self observation i notice i’m a little strange. I love doing scary things and putting myself in dangers way. But my fear of confusing or worrying someone I love is a fear that renders me immobile. So I can put myself out in the wild on my own in the middle of no where. But i can’t confront my mum about something that may worry her. Fear is a terribly strange thing :L
thanks for the read 🙂