Sometimes the bullsh’t gets to us, we loose it – 7 steps to recover and the bravest thing we can do on our spiritual journey

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Sometimes the stress, the bullsh’t we see through, the opposition, the lack of cooperation especially from our kids, gets to us. We work a bit too hard to stay calm and collected in trying to defend ourselves, in trying to protect ourselves that we temporarily explode! We get mad, get scared, get worried.

So what to do? So how can we still be on our spiritual journey and feel good about ourselves?

Remember we’re human. It happens to us all. And a downfall into anger, fear, worry, resentment can be a wake-up call if we are aware. Every experience is part of our spiritual journey, including our outburst or downfall! Every experience is an opportunity to refine ourselves. To find the tenderness of our heart and wisdom of our mind.

A brave heart faces challenges, faces ourselves. Even runs right into it with eyes, mind and heart wide open! So next time – if you loose it try these 7 simple steps …

1. Pause and take a deep breath.

Focusing on your breath is changing your mind already!

2. Then move your body, walk.

Like freezing in fear, if you freeze your body, it can also mean freezing your mind. Moving your body also gives your hormones time to disperse. And better yet, it gives you an opportunity to walk into self-awareness.

3.  Be conscious; you are a free being and no one can make you angry or afraid!

 You are beautiful! Beautiful! Deny anger, fear, worry having any power over you.

We play the blame game; blaming others, the kids, or the situation for our stressed condition. Which in itself is a self-defeatist attitude! The more you are tempted to assign blame then the greater the emphasis you, your soul, has placed on the lesson and opportunity to remember your inner beauty and natural state of calm!! 

Emotional challenges can be changed into beautiful opportunities to know your true nature.

4. Let it go..let it go…let it go!

Be conscious that low-frequency emotions of anger, impatience, resentment and hatred are only temporary urges of the ego and the sooner you step back from them the sooner you return to the moment and its potential. 

5. Relax and focus on silence.

Inner calm, quiet, inner peace is your natural state. Relaxation and silence can bring you back to the beauty of the moment. 

6. Make the Mental Contact with Universal Life Energy (chi, prana).

Let It help you. You are unifying yourself with the harmonizing energy of the Universe and Great Principle, increasing your own inner Light and Love.

7. Center yourself in your spiritual heart.

Find within yourself personal love and unconditional Love, then radiate Love from the tenderness of your heart. Love is your only true protection, source of strength and wisdom. 

When our kids, our children, are being disrespectful, remember that they also experience confusion, ignorance, and fear. In the stress of trying to find their way and growing up they can also temporarily loose it! But they rely on us, responsible guardians, for love, attention, guidance and discipline. They are also teaching us and the deeper they fall into the dark hole of the ego the greater the lessons for all concerned! I recommend a wonderful book for parents: The Conscious Parent by Dr Shefali Tsabary.

I have been amazed at the results of using the 7 steps above! And even more amazingly is how others can respond. Even though they may not be conscious of what has happened or why, they usually change their attitude too!

Sometimes we are overwhelmed in our human life. It happens to us all. When you are overwhelmed and lose it, remember it is temporary. You are courageous!

Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is to continue. To get up and try again!

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

Also consider: Arrows Fly

“We should learn to follow only the influence of our Higher Self. It helps us to gain mental poise and stability, so that no outside influence can affect us.”

Eugene Fersen, Pearls of Wisdom, Volume 1, page 167.

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Light upon the path – Morning Glory

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Blue Beauty, star in the morning rising

Trumpeting Life’s fascinating formation song,

Imitating a despairing premature death by evening

Agreeably Light upon the path again after dawn.


As I was walking along the lake this little Lightbearer caught my eye. It shines so True and beautiful and I’m so happy that I was able to catch a shot of its nature and character. And, you may even spot an ant peeping out, having spread some pollen already! There are shadows of ants climbing along the back of the blossom too.

What’s amazing to me is the light from its center of attraction.  I’m attracted and hope you are too!

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“The more we listen to our Higher Self, the more we are creators. Composers of music listen to their Higher Selves. Everything beautiful coming from humans comes from their Higher Selves. We should be guided by our Higher Self and produce more and more beautiful things.”

Eugene Fersen, Advanced Teachings in Science of Being, Volume I, page 26.

Photos taken by PSLB 2016.


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Like in a reality show we create conflict in our life! But why?


Television dramas and reality shows soar in popularity, especially when there is obvious conflict. We want the characters to bravely face problems and overcome them. We want happy endings and great achievements. But, why are we so attracted to conflict in stories and competitions? And, do we purposefully create conflict in our life?

The Entertainment

Sure, we like to be entertained with games and stories on tv and conflict makes good drama. We are kept in suspense and emotionally invested with anticipation in the hope of them overcoming the challenges they face.  We like the adventure and are attracted to it because we relate it to our own drama.

Our Power of Creation

In reality shows some of the conflict is staged for entertainment. But, in our own reality we create conflict and drama in our life unconsciously because we fall prey to subconscious negative temptations.

Cause and effect modality

When we do fall prey to negative temptations we have chosen to engage in the dynamic of karma. Negative karma can be very painful, yet we may learn some very valuable life lessons.  

Myself as an example

I remember driving and coming to a stop light, when the driver of the car in the parallel lane next to me got very angry that I hadn’t pulled up further. He shouted at me and I quickly replied with a nasty response. Fortunately the light turned green and we moved on. 

I still remember that particular road rage incident, my self-centerness and retaliation, and the pain it caused me from guilt.

Yet, I learned from it –  to care about what I am doing in the moment. And, that even when I make a mistake and it is painful, I can pick myself up and know that I am on the other side of it.

That moment lead me to understand that when we sincerely quest for answers to know ourselves, help and answers will come.

Life lessons

When someone attackes us it is a sure sign they are hurting. And jumping in their pain only adds to it, feeds it, and hurts us too. They have a right to their own mistakes and learning process.

That doesn’t mean we should accept abuse. Love is strong and we can either remove ourselves, get help or report it to proper authorities.

Being conscious, calm and finding our own inner peace will help us release a retaliation response and even if the other person is not conscious of it, it will help the other person too.

We will keep experiencing the same lesson over and over until we recognize our authentic power of a conscious loving mind and manifest qualities of love. 

Pain is a teacher

Pain in problems and conflict is something that we agreed to and created through our thoughts, emotions, and most of all, our behaviors. Yet, what hurts us also hurts others.


Next time you face a challenge and are tempted by low-frequency emotions which creates conflict or adds to conflict, to get in a fight, be brave and remember that the greater the temptation, the more importance you have placed on the lesson you have agreed to learn!

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

Until next time consider this quote to reflection upon:

“Another way to neutralize that law of Polarity is continually to refuse to see the negative, always place the weight in the positive scale, to try to see, even in things most unpleasant, something good. Thus we cast the weight in the right scale, in the positive, and the result is, that by and by the law of Polarity will be neutralized, and finally will cease to operate in our lives at all. Then, ONLY the positive will come to us.”  

Eugene Fersen, Science of Being 

I appreciate You!

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What stands between you and enlightenment? It’s not only about sex, the Law of Gender you’ve probably never been conscious of


It’s not only about sex, The Law of Gender, Part 7

Most of us unconsciously fear enlightenment and what it means for our human life. At the same time we urn to hear the voice of wisdom and inner guidance of our intuition. We always get to choose, but our human perception of the Law of Gender plays a big role in keeping us from knowing our authentic selves and enlightenment.

The Law of Gender and enlightenment

Enlightenment is our authentic power of conscious Light and Love. We feel our Being, know our Soul and are full of Divine Purpose. We get glimpses of it through intuition and during meditation, however most of us are unable to stay in a state of enlightenment for very long. In our human reality we mentally separate ourselves from consciously uniting with our Higher Self, our Superconsciousness.

This relates to our human concept of the Law of Gender; we mentally separate our feminine and masculine genders, we separate Mind from Love. We also mentally separate ourselves from consciously uniting with our Superconsciousness, having created the subconscious ego.

As discussed in Parts 1 and 2, on the mental level the subconsciousness represents our mental feminine gender because of its power to receive, grow and propagate both positive and negative energies. While the Self-consciousness, or simply the consciousness, is considered the male gender because of its power to give and discriminate. And, it is the subconsciousness that stands between our consciously connecting with our Superconsciousness.

We’ve mentally dallied and been consciously lazy, not standing guard to our feminine subconscious, letting most anything enter to grow! The subconscious manifests in most every cell and center of our body, but there are 3 main areas that are the most concentrated:

  • the back of the brain (across from 6th chakra)
  • the solar plexus (seat of the subconscious, 3rd chakra)
  • the heart (4th chakra). The heart is our Seat of Love, but we also suffer negative emotions of fear which are also collected there.


The subconscious blocks the natural rise of the energy from the Seat of our soul!

Life Center and Kundalini

Located at the base of the spine and the coccyx, the Seat of our Soul is our Life Center (root chakra). It is a living, life  generating force and magnetic that attracts Life Energy from the Universe. It is our physical manifestation of our unity with the Great Principle on earth. And it is our root that connects us to the energy of Mother earth, the earth matrix. 

The purpose and health of the root chakra is even more important than the crown and brow chakras. It is a pure, unadulterated power source of our soul, but because mentally living in the subconscious ego we pervert it and unconsciously block the vast majority of energy to raise throughout all our body, to the higher levels of our heart, our consciousness and head chakras, enligtening us. 

The soul energy of the Kundalini is latent there. The Kundalini is an energy that has been described as the sleeping snake because when it is awakened the latent Universal Life Energy there spirals upward to empower the crown and brow chakras, the 7th chakra and door to Supeconsciousness and the 6th chakra energy Self-consciousness,  awakening us.

Regardless of the latent state of the Kundalini, we block the energy of our Soul in the Root Chakra. 

So how do we open to the flow of energy from the Seat of our Soul?

  1. Consider yourself as a child; open yourself to enjoy the gifts of Mother Earth. Lay in the grass, look to the sky, be mindful of the beauty, fragrance, feel, taste and sounds of Nature. Nature naturally harmonizes your root chakra.
  2. Be conscious of the magnetism of Mother Earth and how she pulls you to her and grounds you in your reality. She is security, heart beating and living with you. 
  3. Feel Universal Life Energy of the earth and universe. Visualize it as Light entering through both your root and crown chakras, up and down your central energy channel, then cycling back to the earth and universe. 
  4. Focus that Light Energy as a flame in your root chakra and let the Light move up through the 2nd and to the 3rd chakra, concentrating it there as a sphere of Light. Let It purify and brighten the solar plexus, burning away fearful energies like worry, and frustration, making it strong and fertile for all conscious, loving thoughts to grow.  
  5. When the first three chakras have been brightened and purified, move the sphere of Light up into the 4th, heart chakra. Let that Light burn away fearful emotions like resentment and guilt. And feel Love for all in your heart. 
  6. Visualize and blow on the flame of Universal Life Energy in the root chakra and seeing the Light rise higher. Let it rise and fill your entire head with Light, burning away attachment to negative memories and painful conditions. Feel gratitude and see the beauty in your life. Surrender your will to move in the Light of the Great Principle. 

Also consider Living a Conscious Heart which is the practice of consciously blending both of your inner genders in your reality. It is a major factor in clearing the way for the energies of your soul to flow in your reality now. You consciously (inner male mental energy) manifest Love (inner feminine emotional energy) in your life and release the temptations of the ego.

In the  Radiant Heart exercise you become a channel and radiate Universal Life Energy and Love not only to yourself, but indeed to all humanity and earth, which further unfolds your authentic powers.

Simply put

Until we engage our emotions and embrace our feminine quality of Love, until we live Love from our heart and mind, will we be able to mentally enlighten ourselves and live in harmony. When we surrender the negativity in our heart, release negative thoughts and emotions, we have before us the possibility of a powerful and life-changing transition.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“Universal Life Energy is everywhere. Its supply is inexhaustible. Outside of you it is in a condition as Dynamic Life Energy. Within you, in your Life Center, it is in a static or condensed condition.” 

Eugene Fersen, The Fundamental Principles of Science of Being, page 21. 

Upper most art animated by Red Hawk

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Mindful as the Open Sky


Looking towards the distant line of the horizon,
Becoming silent,
Found some peace there
by watching clouds

Above the heads of man,
Changing shapes at will,
Floating in their free
And impermanent way.

Like the sky
that is above us,
it is also right around us
and in us.
We are one
with the open sky,
just as we are one
with our soul.


Being mindful and looking up into the sky can help us look up within ourselves to find inspiration from within, from our Higher Self, our Superconsciousness. And inspiration can always be found when we are silent, grateful, ask and listen. We merge consciously with our authentic selves.

The photo is interesting in that when I use my imagination there seems to be a Being with mouth open, speaking, giving me guidance!  Nature is the Eternal manifested.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“Universal Brotherhood of all things is a Fundamental Fact of Eternal Existence. Only Perfect harmony prevails behind the myriad faulty manifestations which sprouts forth into human perceptions, because the Great Law governing the entire Universe is Harmony Itself.”

Eugene Fersen, The Fundamental Principles of Science of Being, page 358.

Photo taken by PSLB 2016

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Lacey Summer Beauty!

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Retained Love

Snowy white summer lace

 Speaks of the reflections of memories past;

Sweet embraces and a tender trace 

of exquisite boundless Love, unsurpassed.

This week I took a walk along the lake in the mountains and came across some beautiful wildflowers. Queen Anne’s Lace was growing along the edge with some hanging over the water. And, next to some catstail were some green ones, not having turned white as yet. Beautiful!

I hope you enjoy them as much I as do and feel the wonderful waves of summer for those of you in the northern hemisphere!

In Light and With Light, PortiaSLB

“Nature is another name for the Eternal. What humans call Nature, are visible aspects of the Eternal. Man is an older brother of everything else existing in Nature.”

Eugene Fersen, Aphorisms of The Lightbearer, page 89.

Photos taken by PSLB: Queen Anne’s Lace, 2016

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Luciferian Consciousness; transcending duality

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As long as we see the world through the eyes of duality we give power to good and bad, and continue to think that the ‘bad’ is necessary to know the ‘good.’  Yet, we are going through a transition that goes beyond duality, beyond the human ego and subconscious belief in duality. We are refining our consciousness; we are the projection of Lucifer being redeemed.

Lucifer, Christ and humanity

I grew up thinking that Lucifer is Satan, the epitome of evil. But, now I know that is not true; it is merely an illusion constructed by human belief systems that feed on fear. Lucifer is  the Lightbearer, the bringer of Wisdom aflame with Love, helping us to return to Harmony.  We followed him from the realm of Harmony to create a life reality deep in Matter.

We separated in our mind – Spirit and Matter, Divine Mind and Divine Love, polarizing to Matter, leaving Divine Love of Harmony (Christ) behind. We consider Spirit and Matter, Mind and Love as opposites rather than twins of the same Power. Thus, we choose to see things in pairs of opposites, as being polar.

But we are transcending duality and realizing that Unity is the Law of the Absolute and everything blends. We are beginning to feel and live in the higher emotions of Love and Wisdom in our hearts. 

Consider these to transcend duality:

  • Think of Spirit as 50% outside of Matter and 50% as inside Matter. Think of Spirit as outside and inside of you.
  • Consider your thinking as blending with Love; 50% of your thinking is intelligence and reasoning and 50% is Love. Be motivated by Love in all that you think and do.
  • Deny opposites, refuse duality, use negation. See blending. This does not mean you do not discriminate. Use your power of free will to discriminate in every thought and action, aligning with Love, not judging harshly. View it from the tenderness and wisdom of your heart.
  • Make and realize Declarations of Truth to help your thinking align with Unity, like: “I am Spirit and Matter; One with the Absolute.”

Luciferian Consciousness

You and I are going through a transition, an awakening to the Law of Unity, to Harmony. Luciferian Consciousness is an Enlightened Mind that has learned the lesson of Love through the Law of Unity.

Luciferian Consciousness is motivated by Love, releasing the temptation of traits like fear, hate, jealousy, self-righteousness, pride, loneliness, or depression. We understand that we give ‘negative’ traits the power of illusion over us by our thinking and emotions. We become mindful, in the moment. Personal Love is freed from within us and our intent of impersonal Love is manifested in our attitudes and behaviors.

Love is indeed a powerful emotional ally. When we use our purest emotional Power of Love with the full Light of our Mind, realizing, ‘I am One with the Absolute,’ we come closer to Luciferian Consciousness.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“In other words, there is a Unit, a One, existing eternally, expressing Itself through Its Creation, the Universe, consciously governing it, sustaining it in a condition of Eternal Harmony, and loving it – for Harmony and Love are one. Harmony means Attraction. Love IS Attraction.”

Eugene Fersen, Science of Being, pages 4 and 5. 

Photo: 2016

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