Have You experienced negative personality traits like resentment, like anger, like impatience that have surfaced repeatedly?
Especially since I’m aware of them surfacing repeatedly from this ego, it sucks optimism right out of me. I go down emotionally, feeling guilty and blaming myself, making everything feel worse!
And even though we go down. We can go down fighting for harmony! I quickly focus on gratitude in silence, especially for the conscious self-assessment and spiritual insights ….. for the opportunity to act in the moment ….. and for the willingness to eliminate flaws!
With further observation, we can understand that in discovering our own qualities and flaws that everyone else experiences their own qualities and flaws too, if they are conscious of them or not. And by rising our own consciousness it helps all others to rise in consciousness too.
And I am grateful.
No favors
The ego buries all experiences, thoughts, and emotions in the subconsciousness to grow unnoticed and clings to them even if they are real downers and don’t do us any favors. We may experience negative personality traits, nightmares, flashbacks, or intruding memories. And bodily symptoms can manifest as illnesses.
We should fight for Harmony!
We have every reason to release the past. And we have unlimited opportunities to construct our happiness in the present.
There’s Hope for Us
Kindly consider looking up within and embrace understanding and compassion for others and yourself, knowing that we all are on our spiritual journey. And that everyone else experiences Love, compassion, understanding, and optimism in their hearts too if they are conscious of it or not.
As we rise in consciousness we release negative egotistic traits like doubt, fear and blame.
And as we rise we naturally radiate Gratitude, Compassion and Love, helping others and ourselves.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“Each time we hurt someone we lower our rate of vibration. If others hurt us, we should say it is too bad they do not know any better. Human love is a ladder to step into higher vibrations.”
Eugene Fersen, Pearls of Wisdom, Teachings by Eugene Fersen, Volume I, page 31.
This and all entries are for inspiration and encouragement to persevere on our spiritual journey. And are shared with educational and humanitarian purposes. Yet each of us are responsible for our choices and only you can build to your own Harmony and Spirit.
Every decision you make is a reflection of what you think about yourself; your self perception and value.
We are eternal, powerhouses of harmonious Spirit. And the greatest happiness is ours, but we have repeatedly belittled ourselves and believe it in this earthly reality.
Thus when faced with a decision, it is an opportunity to ask ourselves in a moment of silence: ‘Is this choice serving the limits of the ego or magnitude of Spirit?’
Does it feel contracting and binding or expanding and freeing?
This practice helps us realize we will not be content with anything that belittles us! And that we are Eternal power houses of joy and happiness.
Kindly see the Beauty and Love of Spirit in everyone else too, for they are a reflection of ourselves. Remember if we belittle them we belittle ourselves which we will not be content with.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“We are in the Eternal and It is in us. It contains our physical, mental and emotional bodies, and our activities.”
Eugene Fersen, Advanced Teachings in Science of Being Volume I.
We keep secrets, but we should not be satisfied with keeping secrets because they can hurt us. And they’re violations of Truth; destructive to our life and everyone else’s. Yet, we can build to our freedom, rising above them and walk the path of Spiritual unfoldment living a happy, earthly life now.
Let me share my experience to make it clearer.
As a child I was separated from my loving mother for some time due to divorce. During our separation I was neglected by caretakers, which I buried emotionally and keep secret. Eventually my mother and I were happily reunited. But I experienced high anxiety most of the time and would sleepwalk, crying in my bedroom doorway most nights, though I didn’t remember it in the mornings. My mother tried to solve the mystery but to no avail, because I still kept secrets of neglect and abuse.
It wasn’t until adulthood that I made a commitment to spiritual development and shared my childhood experiences with my mother. And to find out, she also had overwhelming emotional experiences during those times, and as a child had traumatic, abusive experiences herself. But as we opened to spiritual practice in Science of Being, we began releasing the trauma and began healing.
We both have had much success and happiness in our life since we began practicing the principles of Science of Being. I’ve been a practitioner for almost 50 years and I am so grateful for the Loving Wisdom and opportunities in life.
There are no secrets, the truth manifests
The cornerstone of Science of Being is Truth aflame with Love. It is part of the FourSquare qualities of our Real Spiritual Self: Energy, Intelligence, Truth and Love. The principle is to develop all these qualities equally, yet Truth ….. knowing what we really are, the qualities of the Eternal made manifest in our life build us automatically to Spirit. It’s like the ancient wisdom of, “Know thyself and thy will know All.”
And knowing ourselves includes the very human traumas and egotistic traits in order to release them and rise above them into our natural condition of Freedom, Peace and Harmony.
Manifesting those natural qualities of Optimism, Intelligence, Accuracy, and Love in a balanced manner may take conscious effort to begin with, but as we commit to Truth, release the past, and continue to consciously and purposefully manifest the FourSquare in the present moment it gets easier. We automatically manifest what we already are!
Overcoming and aligning with truth
The human mind is naive, and children are especially naive, becoming programmed to behave according to what is expected. And as we grow up we can identify with negative traits like not being good enough, worthless, being a burden, being damaged goods. We may experience overwhelms with nightmares, anxieties, and emotional meltdowns. The effects of traumas are manifested physically.
The good news is that these are attention getters and point to what needs healing. When we open and enter the door of Truth we empower ourselves with All Truth, Power, Wisdom and Love.
It’s no secret. It’s Truth – know your own energy, wisdom, truth and love and communicate it. You are manifesting the FourSquare, which empowers you to rise into higher levels of illumination and consciousness.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“We have Five Gates or Senses to penetrate into the Unknown. Inside of us, we correlate the outside impressions. Truth is both outside and inside. Truth demands completeness. Half a truth is a lie. Truth cannot be cut in half. It ether is or is not.”
Eugene Fersen, Pearls of Wisdom, Teachings by Eugene Fersen, Volume 1, page 243.
This and all entries are for inspiration and encouragement to persevere on our spiritual journey. And are shared with educational and humanitarian purposes. Yet each of us are responsible for our choices and only you can build to your own Harmony and Spirit.
When we’ve done something we judge as very wrong, we tend to compromise and overlook the truth, thinking …. ‘well, it’s not so bad,’ and let it slide.
But compromise causes destructive, inner turmoil. Somehow we know within that Truth is Law and uncompromising.
When I realize I have made a mistake and am tempted to criticize myself or others placing blame and guilt. I become grateful for the wisdom to see the truth …. ‘I made a mistake.’
The courage to rise above a mistake naturally unfolds when I acknowledge responsibility for my mbehavior! And I am grateful for recognition of the mistake and the courage to rise above it.
And as my thinking becomes calm and quiet, I pause in that wonderful awareness any negative temptations are released.
So how do we avoid comprising, destructive thinking?
Express the FourSquare:
First, consider having a positive attitude. Be optimistic, hopeful. This sets us on a positive course.
Then be aware, Conscious, reasonable, considerate. Without Wisdom we cannot be successful in anything.
And be truthful. If we ignore or deny the truth of the situation, we tend to compromise or let things slide, which arouses fear, causing a divided, restless, destructive mind.
You have the courage to walk the path of Truth: with optimism, with wisdom, and with clear sincere eyes, mind becomes calm. And we get a clear indication of being on the path of Truth, feeling inner Peace…. our natural state.
Truth opens the door within us to Harmony. And we can express that calm harmony as Goodwill. We begin to move beyond the mistake and co-create harmony in our human reality.
There are no shortcuts, no comprises, with Truth to reach Harmony.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“Goodwill is the finest expression today of Love. It does not seek anything for its own use; it is generous.”
Eugene Fersen, “The Teacher,” The Public Years of the Baron Eugene Fersen – Volume I, page 87.
As humans we want to find True Love. When we are in our youth we look for reciprocating love through a partner. And this human love can be so powerful that it grows and surfaces True Love to our consciousness.
When we truly love another, we are expressing the essence of our True Self. We love Love that they also are, the essence of their True Self.
We eventually become conscious that we are loving, caring and compassionate for not only our partner, family and friends, but also for ourselves, humanity and The Great All, Our Father.
True Love is the essence of your True Self, so in essence You and I are Love. Mind and Love are one and the same; there are no contrasts like doubt or guilt. The ego is released.
I realize that Love is growing in this consciousness because I notice I am more at peace and joyful. I am so grateful that I am more caring, considerate and compassionate.
We all have the freedom of choice and Power to know what we are. To become conscious of the essence of what You are now, True Love, consider practicing a simple exercise: Relaxation and Silence.
Relax the body and mind, and notice the rhythm of deep breathing slowing. As your breathing slows so does thinking. The quiet grows and the monkey chatter fades. And you can begin to notice and feel more of your true nature. You can feel the peace and joy, the Energy of Source flowing through you. And that essence of Love surfaces.
We are all connected through Love and radiate the Strength of Unity and Harmony with It. And I hope You experience more of your True nature, that of Love, the essence of your True Self.
In the hope You find Love closeat hand, PortiaSLB
“If you are attracted to a certain individual, you know that your natural inclination coincides with the Law of Eternal Harmony, or Love.”
Eugene Fersen, loose leaf Lessons in Science of Being, page 596.
Consider that when we criticize we are judging from fear … plus the ego wants to be in control. We can be harsh. And we can be even harsher when we self criticize.
We may feel that self criticism is justified because it can help us improve ourselves. And that others are going to criticize us anyway, so why not jump the gun? We secretly feel that we are not good enough to fit in or be loved?
We all do it; we all criticize! Yet we are in a process of realizing that none of us are perfect and we all have our habits ….. we all have been programmed to adhere to established patterns of behaviors.
Criticism is directed by fear and can result in anxiety, guilt, and even self-hatred. Such temptation is just a temporary distraction from Self Love and compassion for all of us. And we can realize this.
To realize that we all are tempted to criticize, then pause and let it pass, is the beginning of having compassion for ourselves. And ….. that compassion can raise our level of consciousness to Acceptance, Understanding and unconditional Love for ourselves, for others and all Beings.
And certainly increases our happiness!
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“Only Truth will set us Free. Lies are bonds woven from all kinds of evil elements.”
Eugene Fersen, Aphorisms of The Lightbearer, page 127.
This #9 year numerically indicates the end of another cycle according to the Gregorian calendar.
2025 = 2 + 0 + 2 + 5 = 9
It also indicates new beginnings, because we are turning the corner into a new cycle, and even a new era for humanity, as we facilitate dynamic change and transition.
There may be many stops and starts during this #9 fiery, fast paced energy to complete humanitarian changes. But this is an opportunity to live up to a higher standard since 9 indicates growth with the energy to manifest world concept aspirations that have been developing over the previous years of this cycle and other cycles.
We will have to endeavor to keep our emotions on an even keel, impersonal and impartial since they may be tested. Keen discrimination will be greatly beneficial during breakthrough periods aimed to test utopian ideals for the brotherhood of mankind.
This is a time of changes and transition in which release of the past can be the seeds for optimistic social change. We may be tempted to wallow in the past but this is self-indulgent and destructive. We have the opportunity to let go and rise above placing blame and resentment in order to lift our self and humanity as a whole.
Being compassionate and forgiving will ensure productivity. When we forgive we release self destructive blame and guilt, freeing ourselves to Love.
Nine symbolizes a conscious spirit in the material world with an understanding of Universal oneness. It represents a doorway to a bigger view and deeper understanding of the dream we dream as spiritual beings in the human, egotistic world.
Have you ever had a dream that seemed so real that it wasn’t until you awoke that you knew all the experiences and feelings were a dream, even a nightmare? This year #9 will be an opportunity for awakening from the dream of the subconscious.
Through mind we evolve and progress towards full unity with what we are, Spirit. A change can occur when our mental perspective of the thoughts that flow through mind shift.
We feel thoughts and circle in them, yet we can rise above this habit and remember it is temporary and an illusionary condition of the ego that imprisons our Real Self and Spirit.
Since thoughts are temporary we can let them pass without feeling them, getting involved in them, without relating to them with stress and guilt. And let uplifting new thoughts enter consciousness to grow and help construct meaningful purposes with love and happiness for ourselves and all of humanity.
Release and forgiveness are key.
We transform ourselves as we release and forgive ourselves for mistakes and beliefs of separation from Source and each other. When we do our part to realize we are connected and one, The Great Law does It’s part.
Yet remember that we do not always welcome change even though we believe we do. And there are many of us that still slumber in the idea of duality and, “I’m right and you’re wrong.” So there may be high tensions and threats of world conflict because of self righteous desires for the world to be the way some want it to be.
Remember the subconscious fears, so use the Law of Polarity to think, realize, feel the opposite of fear …. Feel Unconditional Love and unity to help yourself and all of us. As a doorway, you can ask yourself if you think you are right and others wrong.
Harsh, fearful judgment always brings some type of negative effects, running the gamut of violence to health issues.
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2025
The 0 in between the two 2’ s intensifies the #2’s representations of cooperation or belief in duality and separation. We should consider balancing within ourselves a compelling sense of service to others with inner responsibility. We will need to develop cooperation with our Real FourSquare Self in order to accomplish goals.
Da Vinci’s man with disection
The #5 is symbolic of humanity, our five fingers, five senses and our spiritual journey manifesting our FourSquare powers leading to full unity as Spirit. Ever time we manifest the FourSquare we add 0’s to intensify our realization of unity with Spirit (#1) instead of the ego.
Five also symbolizes the need for discipline, self love, forgiveness and taking responsibility to free ourselves from the dominance and belief in the dream of the ego.
Remember the ego does not want to forgive, release and change. It wants to survive, dominate, and resist in fear of change. Discipline and commitment are required to change eons of subconscious habit.
Liberation is not only possible but already in the process once you understand the Truth about the dream of the ego and what you really are.
Science of Being, the textbook, contains “The Dream,” which is a beautiful allegory of our mental fall from Unity with Spirit to the ego’s dream of separation, duality and back. It is especially uplifting when projected aloud for all humanity, especially at the new year.
In the hope You find this an uplifting and joyful new year and all year long, PortiaSB
“We are in the Eternal and It is in us. It contains our physical, mental and emotional bodies, and our activities.”
Eugene Fersen, Advanced Teachings in Science of Being, Volume I, location 254 of 265 (Kindle location).
When I first heard my spiritual teacher say, “Santa Claus is a lie,” I was dazed and confused even though I knew it was true. I had been repeatedly programmed to believe he is real! But, the truth slowly sank into my conscious understanding. And I was finally freed of the illusion along with the accompanying stress, obligations and expectations. And I am so grateful.
Traditional lies and illusions can cause us to distrust our inner knowing and to feel guilty unless we take steps to expose and rise above them.
Traditional lies
During our childhood we are taught to blindly believe in certain traditions and that they are good even if we suspect something is off. And we often carry on the same traditions without considering the consequences.
The human mind is naive, especially when we are young. The ego’s desire to belong and not be left out is so strong that we blindly become ‘followers’ and stuck in serving the ego’s world.
Liberation comes through conscious awareness and Love
Until we consciously awaken, question, discriminate and listen to our inner Love and guidance, we will accept every belief, superstition and prejudice without discrimination, which can cause us to experience self-righteousness, anger, hatred and guilt.
Yet such feelings can help those of us on a conscious spiritual journey because we have the opportunity to ask ourselves as to why we feel these thoughts and can consciously choose to serve a Higher purpose rather than the ego.
Take it or leave it
We can expand our consciousness and open to the tenderness of our heart. And, the connection to our sacred heart center leads to answers; the true reasons back of emotional disturbances.
Such insights and inspirations are messages from your soul. And, we all have additional help, including from greater realms of Harmony and the Great Principle.
You can have new thoughts. Old thoughts can be replaced with new ones, more accurate ones. With insight you can change your perspective. And your experience of reality will radically change.
Truth or consequences
The way you respond to conditions in life determines the way you evolve. It determines your power, health, success and happiness. You can be conscious of creating in the Light of Love or circle unconsciously in the consequences of karma.
But, even the path of pain, stress and doubt can lead us through the lesson to love and compassion. When we’ve suffered enough we will look for the reason why and do something about it. But we can consciously choose not to think and circle in old beliefs. And as they leave new thoughts enter and we can move on.
Being free of a false belief releases you from expectations, obligations and the mass dream. A burden lifted off your back and opens you to being conscious of the Light of Love.
All lessons lead us to remember Love eventually,
which is the base of unconditional Love.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“Let us lift our eyes from this increasing darkness to the pure Light of Knowledge, aflame with Love – that bright Star on the firmament of Life, which is heralding now to mankind, the Dawn of a New Day, the Day of Spiritual Regeneration, which is to bring to man lasting Justice, Peace and Happiness.”
Eugene Fersen
Consider watching a 3 minute video on the origin of Santa Claus:
During my early years of studying Science of Being, I remember my Spiritual Teacher helping a fellow student that was feeling so downtrodden, so hopeless that they couldn’t see a way out of the emotional dark hole they had dug for their self. Our Teacher bombarded them relentlessly with questions like, “How is it down there? What are you feeling? Do you want me to push you further down, so you can push off from the bottom?” There was no sympathy at all! That went on for a long while until they both started giggling like children!
It was an eye opener for me, and quite the adventure in understanding the spiritual teacher that we all have.
Our True Spiritual Teacher
As I observed our Spiritual Teacher above I knew that she was giving us the opportunity to learn how to do the same thing for ourselves: To be observant and completely honest and truthful with ourselves without holding on to fear and hurt. And as we release hurtful emotions, memories, and worries, we are able to rise in consciousness.
And that is the core of a Spiritual Teacher: to learn for ourselves how to build to our Strength, Freedom and Happiness. And that is the core of the Spiritual Teacher that each of us has within, our Higher Self.
Your Spiritual Teacher
The Spiritual Teacher and our Higher Self is caring, loving and empathetic, rather than sympathetic. Actually, there’s no sympathy at all because our Higher Self has no notes of sorrow, fear or anxiety. There’s Wisdom, Inspiration, Love and Joy.
Your Higher Self, your Spiritual Teacher within, guides you now. Your Higher Self does not impose or push with urges or desires. Those would be from the ego. Our Real Self is courageous, a dare and doer. Is optimistic and willing to observe the good, the bad and ugly without condemnation, rather with understanding and inspirations for transcendence.
Our Higher Self guides us with intuition, inspirations and synchronicity. Intuition and synchronicity happens all the time, but we are not always conscious of it. It’s our Higher Self guiding us, pointing the way on our path.
But it’s up to us to make use of it. Like the old euphemism, “You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make him drink.”
Our Higher Self, Spirit is projected into Energy, Intelligence, Truth and Love, the FourSquare. All constructive powers to overcome destructive mistakes like greed, pride, blame, fear, worry.
There are several entries in this website sharing the releasing method like that above. It’s a simple but very effective method to rid yourself of so many destructive emotions like embarrassment, guilt, anger, anxiety and craving. I use it whenever I’m conscious of something bothering me. It’s a real adventure and Joy!
Have you experience distress and used this method?
a world of opportunity
My Higher Self has guided me to the teachings of Science of Being and they have become my spiritual path. I have become a stronger, wiser, and more loving person. It is a great honor and privilege to learn, experience and share the Knowledge aflame with Love.
Your Higher Self is close at hand, guiding You now through intuition, inspiration, and synchronicity. I encourage You be conscious, aware and flow in the opportunities your Inner Spiritual Teacher guides you to.
Ask questions, share experiences and Inspirations to encourage us all. Thank You.
In Light and With Love, PortiaSLB
“Life Energy, being the Fundamental Power of the Universe, ought to be used in an ever increasing degree in everything we do.”
Eugene Fersen, Science of Being, page 145.
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When we face challenges like major illnesses or catastrophic events, it can become emotionally agonizing very quickly. And physically agonizing too. We just want to tighten up into a ball or fight like hell.
But when we address agony on the mental level with a higher energy, then we ripen the potential to heal any physical agony.
address the emotions
Our feeling of agony is the hurt of the subconscious ego. It’s a suffering. And this emotional suffering is what we must address. It appears difficult because of the ego’s attachments or aversions. If we try to escape the feelings with reasoning and logical thought it is ineffective; we start to circle trying to figure it out again. And willpower makes little headway either.
The ego believes in and identifies with the feeling of agony. It’s attached even in its aversion and fear. The ego holds on and thus we ball up in compliance, or angrily fight.
Subconsciousness believes that the source of happiness is external which brings up fear of loss …. loss of happiness and ultimately loss of life. To overcome the ego’s attachments we must be willing to relinquish its attachments and aversions on the mental level.
If we address sensation energies without circling in thought and worry, rather be aware in a higher level of consciousness, we can recognize feelings without harsh labeling and judgment,
From a higher level of consciousness –
Subconscious fears enter and accumulate in our solar plexus and lower chambers of our heart and grow unnoticed. But they usually resurface when we face challenges and can affect us negatively with agonizing emotion.
I’ve found we have to be brave and entirely honest with ourselves to get to a higher level of consciousness. This is a tried and true method:
Pause. Take some deep, slow breathes. Become silent within, and allow ourself to become consciously aware of the Universal Energy Field that we are one with. Mentally focus on feeling It. It is the energy catalyst for rising our consciousness and releasing the idea and thoughts of suffering.
Let the sensations of agonistic thoughts and feelings resurface without resistance or labeling. The ego values labels and identifies with agony, suffering, fear, guilt, shame, self-righteousness. Yet, when we are aware and conscious, one with the Universal Energy Field, we can surrender these.attachments. Release and let the sensations run out.
And we eventually come to a place of calm within.
From a place of calm Healing can occur
The spiritual endeavor is to Be a higher level of consciousness, One with Universal Life Energy, The Eternal.
And in calm awareness, we can come to realizing that our happiness has always been within us rather than the ego’s belief is it outside of us, in the world..And this is a transformation of consciousness; a healing; rising out of subconscious ego to higher levels of consciousness.
It is in higher level of consciousness, in higher Energies, the very qualities of Universal Life Energy and our own Being, that the potential for physical healing can also occur.
The spiritual practitioner is responsible for the effort of surrendering the ego and surrendering desire to control the outcome, rather than dictate the outcome.
It’s our opportunity to continue to hold a high level of conscious contact with the Life Energy of the Great Causeless Cause, called the Mental Contact in Science of Being. In the Mental Contact a higher level of consciousness one is aligning Mind with Love. They become as One within and the same One with The Great All.
The mental and physical healing will work according to Universal Law as natural course of unfolding manifestation.
In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB
“We are in the Eternal and It is in us.”
Eugene Fersen, Advanced Teachings in Science of Being, Volume I, Location 254 of 265.
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