Okay, you may not like this entry, or at least the ego may not. It can sting.
Most of us are dissatisfied with who we are or the way we are. We don’t trust ourselves, and even think we’re a terrible person at times. We’re also impatient in our dissatisfaction, but we’ve got our pride. We cannot change into something different, transcend this unwanted personality until we get a good look at it.
The personality is primarily created by the subconscious ego. We allow ourselves to be dominated by the ego which is self-serving, fearful and dualistic. We create a troubled reality because of it.
To regain control over our lives, our personality and create a more positive reality, we must be mindful and conscious in the moment – in a state of consciousness that we take responsibility for. But, the ego doesn’t want us to be conscious, mindful, or listen to our intuition and discriminate – it’s self-centered like that! We battle our conscience. It’s a vicious cycle.
How Did We Get Here?
The subconscious is our storage box of memories, thoughts, desires, and habitual emotional traits like fear, doubt, worry, loneliness, shame, and resentment. We’ve been conditioned to follow its dictates. It is a major factor in shaping our personality, or parts thereof, that we are dissatisfied with. We identify ourselves with subconscious traits and emotionally empower them as behaviors! “I’m mad, I’m lonely, I’m ashamed.”
The ego lacks discrimination and supports ignorance. After centuries of history repeating itself we should be able to see the truth in that. We don’t know ourselves. But, we must know ourselves in order to free ourselves of those parts that cause us pain and suffering.
Our personality, our reality, is something we created and agreed to. Fortunately, even from the darkness of the subconscious ego, it is our destiny to evolve and harmonize ourselves and become fully empowered.
Conscious Intent in Action!
It is our deepest desire and hope to align our personality with our soul. As we courageously make a conscious intent and live the qualities of love like consideration, kindness and caring we bit by bit gain control of our life, transforming our personality. As we consciously release negative egotistic traits we integrate personality and soul, becoming beings of Light here on earth. We transform our reality.
We may still experience pain, because we all suffer, but our inner happiness, peace and joy are not dependent on it.
The ego dislikes such information, but I hope you got a smile out of it!
In Light and with Love, Portia SLB
“… Lucifer typifies the human mind with all its errors and limitation. This name has been ground in the mire and dirt for centuries but only through the regeneration of mind can improvement come.”
Account of Lecture by Eugene Fersen, The Teacher, Volume 1, page 106.
Science of Being 
Thank You Nicoleta for sharing your insights. I’m sure others will benefit from it as I do.
When something feels true or we feel a genuine sincerity within us it is a positive sign because that emotion of sincerity opens the door to Love within us. We are mentally aligning with Truth. We recognize and feel Truth because we have the same quality within us! Sincerity is a quality of our soul! Light and Love to You dear Nicoleta, PortiaSLB
The comment didn’t sting. It feels true. It made me feel good because I feel I am on the right track. My subconscious does have a hold on me, or it did in a negative way for years…but despite the regrets, I know I have lived a life of integrity.
Lovely , as always…Portia.
Blessings.