In the Jungle

 

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In the Jungle

The shadows are dark – the air is damp and hot;
The forest thick with tall palm and kapok tree.
Where moss grows on most trunks
And spiral vines hang free.

Where the dabbled leaves in sunlight sing
A patient and wondrous rhythmic song;
With harvests of silence in-between
Ringing truth that in this moment I do belong.

Intrigued I enter a man-made trail
Walking gently on Mother earth awake and aware
So many wondrous sites, sounds and smells,
I smile, enjoy the beauty, and silently declare

I love this adventure!  Granting temporary freedom from ego indenture.
Then there! – broad, beak toucans fly and catch my eye!
They call two young fledglings who are drinking
From a hollow of tree branch nearby.

Spider monkeys jump and howler monkeys yell
Loud warnings of territorial realms
Sounds meant to frighten and repel
Their cry deepens then overwhelms

I look higher and spot a three-toed sloth that rests
In the highest treetop, peaceful, still
Living the moment in the leaves as nature requests
Ignoring the monkeys’ shrill.

I pause and listen again to the jungle’s song;
Grateful knowing that even after I leave this place
I’ll remember Mother Nature’s generous spirit, varied and strong
Offering wonderful adventures for all to embrace;

And no matter where I am
A patient and wondrous rhythmic song
With harvests of silence in-between
Rings truth that in this moment I do belong.

Spiral Vine          Panama Jungle Trail

Jungle river

The jungles of Panama – beautiful!

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

 

 

The Hots of Our Reality!

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Our ego wants to find love, but can go about it in wrong or harmful ways. It doesn’t really want to know why it’s that way.

Our appetites, our habits, our impulses and libido shape the way we are. They are our desires, and our desires and motivations shape our reality.

We are all looking for Love because mentally we are not conscious of True Love. But, we unconsciously look for love through desires of the ego. The ego can urge us to look for satisfaction or escape through excessive sex, food, recreational drugs and attention. The subconscious ego feels it is lacking which is based in fear. There is no Trust in Universal Love or Universal Abundance.

We can get comfortable with the urges and impulses of the ego and become addicted to over eating, alcohol, sex, infidelity and porn. Food is to sustain our body, an aspect of love and sex is a divine means of helping us realize Love. But, the ego uses urges and impulses to fulfill itself which can end up harming us.

Our great asset is consciousness or awareness. When we are conscious of our desires and motivations we can exercise our authentic power, the power of our soul and individuality. We can use our will to be motivated by love rather than fear.

When we are conscious of Love and motivated by it, then we shape our reality in it. Our thoughts, emotions and behaviors change and thus our reality changes. We live in the flow of life earnestly with enthusiasm, wisdom and caring. We are conscious of goodwill and act with kindness from the tenderness of our heart.

This changes the way we see the world and live our life. It changes our reality because our reality is shaped by the way we are.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB


“We think inharmoniously, and those thoughts of ours –unaware in most cases as we are that they will some day be visited upon us –act most destructively on us. The same is true of our negative emotions, such as hatred, jealousy, revenge, etc. Even if we feel these emotions toward other individuals, ultimately we are the ones who will be most harmed by indulging them, because of the law of Retribution.”

Eugene Fersen, Science of Being

They Test our Patience!

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We’ve all been there. Some people just have a knack for pissing us off! There will be occasions at work, at home, or while we are standing somewhere, when someone triggers an uneasy feeling in us. It can get our dander up!

Until we consciously address fearful emotions they will continue to plague us making us anxious or hard. They become habitual, part of our personality and disposition.

And, we can lose a sense of our True Self.

So What Can We Do?
It’s a matter of mental regulation – recognizing that every unpleasant emotion is a spiritual opportunity and synchronicity, where nothing happens by chance. It’s an opportunity we have set up for ourselves to release the burdens of the subconscious ego and align with our True Self and Love.

Most of us are unaware that the real source of our uneasiness is from fear that is rooted in the subconscious. It can grow there unnoticed only to resurface sooner or later as contentious emotions like anger, apprehension, worry, and hatred causing us bigger problems, even physical illness.

How to Start
When you start to feel some uneasiness, be fully conscious in the moment. Pause your thinking, take a deep breath, relax and quiet the mental chatter; be still. Consider making the Mental Contact with Universal Life Energy (Cosmic Energy, chi, prana, Life Force) to help you relax and refocus.

Be the ‘watcher of the thinker’ from a higher consciousness. Impersonally observe your body language, facial expressions, thoughts and attitude, drawing them into you and feeling them fully without harsh judgment.

Be courageous and very sincere in your examination. Sincerity opens our heart and mind to the inspiration of our Higher Self.

Keep in mind that people who challenge us emotionally are also on a spiritual journey, seeking ways to release the burden of the subconscious. Think of them as facilitators of spiritual synchronicity.

A Deeper Understanding
The reasoning, conscious mind can go only so far in understanding. That’s when we reach for inspiration from our Higher Self by asking questions of ourselves. Questions like:

  • Why am I feeling impatient?
  • Why is it so important to me that I am attached to it?
  • Am I coming from a place of fear or love in my heart?

If we recognize we are tempted by fear, we can let it pass us by, release it and choose another path – Love.

We will still move in our thinking and emotions, therefore, we can further abet release of the temptation by: 

  1. Opening ourselves to a positive emotion like gratitude. A positive emotion negates a negative one.
  2. Manifesting a positive emotion physically in our behavior with a smile, a kind word or stillness.
  3. Changing our body language which can help us move into a positive emotion. Moving can disperse hormonal chemicals like adrenaline. It can take up to 90 seconds ——— to disperse negative energy.
  4. Make a sincere effort to see the Divine. When we see the Divine in another we are also invoking the power to see the Divine within ourselves!

A thought of Love and connection to Harmony destroys negative thoughts within us and we will feel a relief. This frees us from fixed ideas about attack, retaliation, correction and other fearful defenses. 

When we choose Love we are transforming our thought process in our everyday life from fear to Love, thereby, breaking addictive, fearful patterns. 

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB


Consider this quote for reflection:

“The guidance of our Higher Self is the best way we can define our Destiny.”

Eugene Fersen, Advanced Teachings in Science of Being, page 47.

Between Souls

Between souls

We believe in the illusions of the ego and it’s irresponsibilities, and therefore we experience anger, resentment and impatience, blaming others for our negative traits. Others can help us be aware of those negative traits that burden us.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB


“Love is constant, is known by loyalty, symbolized by Law.”

Eugene Fersen, The Teacher, page 83.

Silent Cry

 

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          Silent Cry

Silent cry, the most painful
Feeling separated from love, apart
Silent cry, the most painful,
Consuming misery in the heart
Silent cry, the most painful,
Emotional desolation does impart
Silent cry, the most painful
Alone inside
No tears, no sounds, no counterpart.


The worst emotional pain is when we feel separated from True Love.

It can feel like our heart is being torn out. That’s because we believe the irresponsibility of the subconscious ego, without consciously knowing we are part of Universal Love; that we are Loved and that we Love. That we are not alone in this world; that we are always connected with each other, Divine Love and the Great Principle.

That suffering can awaken us to Love rather than getting us stuck in depression. It can awaken us to gentleness, kindness and goodwill in others and ourselves. We can emotionally reconnect with the tenderness that is our loving heart.  

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

 

The Invisible Realm

 

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The Invisible Realm

Warm summer day, beauty abounds, elementals dance among the leaves,

More in nature than air, water, cattails and trees, much more to perceive,

Human reality beyond five senses awakens to invisible realm, does conceive,

Nature’s sweet music not for ears, heralds Spirits of Light that interweave

With loving hearts, understanding minds, open arms willing and ready to receive.


There is more in this earthly dimension than the physical eye can perceive. We can feel the wind and the warm rays of the sun, and it is also true of other energies that dance among us, especially in nature. We can feel them when we become quiet inside, with no thoughts interrupting our silence.

There are many, many dimensions and we can get a glimpse of them primarily though our emotional awareness. And, when you are consciously calm and loving then those energies of high frequency will be experienced – Divine Love being the most enlightening!

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

Silent Cry

 

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          Silent Cry

Silent cry, the most painful
Feeling separated from love, apart
Silent cry, the most painful,
Consuming misery in the heart
Silent cry, the most painful,
Emotional desolation does impart
Silent cry, the most painful
Alone inside
No tears, no sounds, no counterpart.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

 

The Invisible Realm

 

cat tail on lake refined

The Invisible Realm

Warm summer day, beauty abounds, elementals dance among the leaves,

More in nature than air, water, cattails and trees, much more to perceive,

Human reality beyond five senses awakens to invisible realm, does conceive,

Nature’s sweet music not for ears, heralds Spirits of Light that interweave

With loving hearts, understanding minds, open arms willing and ready to receive.

 

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

A Hope of Beauty

 

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A Hope of Beauty

From the mind of man comes the hope of beauty
From the heart of man comes appreciation & manifestation of beauty 
The Soul of man is Beauty.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB


As hu-mans we create problems and ugliness even in our own eyes.  And in our heart we regret them and hope that harmony returns.

Yet, we have to create that harmony and beauty ourselves, within ourselves and around ourselves. When one person does it helps others by inspiring them to create through their behaviors beauty and harmony in their lives.

Humans are beautiful when we manifest our soul. And as souls we are Man – eternal, universal Beings. We are an interweaving of human, soul and the Source and with the beauty we create, we refine ourselves and evolve.


“Creation is the use of the most sacred Powers the Eternal has given us to achieve something.”

Eugene Fersen, Aphorisms of The Lightbearer, page 201.