shaping your reality – Science of Being

Disastrous control from infancy!

March 2, 2026February 3, 2026 by Circlelightbearer, posted in Liberating Your Soul, Mindfulness, shaping your reality

Greetings Lightbearers!

Have you seen 2 year old toddlers display the strange behavior of walking away from the protection of their parents in places like a mall? I have. And I recognize the attitude within myself and you will too when you examine it closer.

We are controlled and programed from infancy. Then our mental conditioning continues as we age into toddlerhood, kindergarten and school. We’re told what to do, when to do it and how to do it. What attitudes and behaviors to display. We are conditioned for compliance to attitudes and behaviors, usually for our own good to reinforce our survival.

Yet, we all desire Freedom from all the programming, from complications, strife and the heavy burdens of humanity. We all want the same things: health, happiness, peace and love.

Even toddlers desire Freedom!

But, we have been unknowingly conditioned to be a slave to the subconscious ego from a very, very early age. We are addicted to circling in guilt, desire, worry …..trapped in thoughts …..controlled by the ego.

Yet deep down there is something within that wants Freedom. And we may exercise our freedom in ways that can be disastrous ….. like driving too fast…. lashing out at people that don’t agree with our self-righteousness ….indulging in porn, binge eating, or other dangerous activities.

Yet we are usually unaware that it is still just programming of the subconscious. Why? Because the body also becomes programmed with these memories. There are many types of memories programmed in the body…. like evolutionary and genetic karma, personal karma, and habits.

So what can we do to claim our Freedom?

Remember freedom is based in Truth.

First, we can allow ourselves to be conscious and honest about any programming we experience. The Truth gets us everywhere.

Second, consciously release egotistic programming. That is move to #3, rise above programming.

And third, work in the moment to be FourSquare: Be enthusiast and intelligent, along with displaying integrity and compassion, thereby aligning with the Great Principle and our Soul. Thus we gain our Freedom from the subconscious ego’s programming to reveal our Real Self and Soul.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“Contact with Universal Intelligence requires stillness, passivity, a rich sense of harmony within.”
Eugene Fersen, Science of Being (looseleaf 27 lessons), page 428.

This and all entries are for inspiration and encouragement to persevere on our conscious spiritual journey. And are shared with educational and humanitarian purposes. Yet each of us are responsible for our choices and only you can build to Harmony and Spirit.

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Nice problem consideration

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A reoccurring egotistic theme crops up in society causing us problems:

The ego, likes to be ‘nice!

But being ‘nice’ can mean being overly nice or fastidious, even going to the point of being unlawful. Unlawful by not being in harmony with Universal Laws or by not being in the standard of human laws. We may lie to be nice or encourage others to break laws and support criminals causing pain and suffering.

My spiritual teacher always encouraged us to be True and FourSquare with enthusiasm, wisdom, integrity, and Love as the key elements in any decision.

An egotistical driven nice person will lie or support criminal activities just to appear pleasing, while inside they are hating. A pleasant person is genuinely joyful without harsh judgment and compassionate.

We have a choice to fight for Truth or fight against unjust laws.

Why not fight for Truth and Justice, fight with Love, rather than fight against with hate?

Hate doesn’t solve anything, rather it supports more negativity and finds more reasons to complain, protest and aggravate. The ego is attracted to death, even while appearing soooo nice!

The soul knows Life! Is Wise, Truthful and Loving and will fight for and with those qualities.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“The ultimate end toward which Evolution tends is perfect equality, through the elimination of that Personality in whose differences inequality resides.”
Eugene Fersen, Science of Being (looseleaf 27 lessons), page 553.

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The sense of it

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New Zealand PSLB

While floating on the surface of this instance, a soft breeze of joy and happiness caress my face with hope of inner peace.

But the sense of human existence and mournful sounds of painful memories cause me to sink with heavy chains of guilt.

Guilt pulls me further under, and I descend into darkness.

I struggle to survive and to rise to the surface of Light.

I’m wild with fear of death and full of doubt that the soft breeze continues even now without me.

Finally surrender becomes a conscious inevitability. . . And dumping more illusionary trash in the darkness is halted.

With quiet alertness in the instance, a path to joy and softness of inner peace becomes apparent.

And I need only choose it.

Illusions of self vengeance are gone. And only Truth of Now is evident.

In Light and With Light, PortiaSLB

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“Seems so” consideration

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As we consciously travel our spiritual journey we seem to be presented with many dualities or obstacles that challenge our progress.These choices or obstacles appear conflicted between good and bad or helpful and not helpful causing stagnation/decline.

And I’ve found that the one that raises red flags of caution is when I’m feeling I ‘should‘ choose one pole over another!

I’ll ask myself why am I feeling anxious. Is it because subtle guilt is attached to mortal programming or is it fear? There’s a payoff of pleasure for a particular choice or fear of the alternative. It’s a want or not want thing.

Yet let us remember that our spiritual journey is all about Freedom, primarily freedom from the subconscious ego and its traits, programming and obligations. We can always suspend any choice until another opportunity presents itself with greater options.

Yet any choices that appear in duality can be resolved with a deep spiritual intent to use the FourSquare as guidance, using All Energy, Intelligence, Law and Love balanced in your choice. Then surrendering it to the Great Principle, knowing that things will workout according to the Great Law.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“It is through evolution of one’s own mind that knowledge is increased, and the more we throw the Light within ourselves, the clearer we see things without.”
Eugene Fersen, Science of Being.

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Every decision consideration

February 2, 2026 by Circlelightbearer, posted in shaping your reality

Every decision you make is a reflection of what you think about yourself.

And it comes to “Know thyself” doesn’t it?

Is it a decision to benefit the ego or soul?

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“Love, the single antidote for every destructive thought and passion, not only heals the wounds inflicted by them, but opens the individual to the purging flow of that Great Power which alone can make him immune to them forever more.”
Eugene Fersen, Science of Being (27 lessons looseleaf), page 187.

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Is it a sin to make a mistake?

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I’m so happy to share a question in the spirit of healing for us. So consider this:

Can we see that a mistake is a call for love?

Even a simple mistake like stubbing our toe … is it a call for love ?

The ego can be very careless and can walk along with little alertness or care. But when we are in the moment and conscious, we are alert and care about the way we walk and our surroundings. We love.

Yes we do make mistakes like stubbing our toe and it hurts. My spiritual teacher always said that pain teaches us. It certainly does get our attention and then we have a choice to care enough to learn from it.

To recognize this is very helpful to our healing process. Love lies beyond any illusion of sin. And we can correct most mistakes. Even so-called major mistakes can eventually be harmonized with commitment to spiritual intent not to do that again. And with commitment to union with Spirit and Harmony for all humanity.

Mistakes help us learn and acquire knowledge. Knowledge made of truth and love becomes wisdom and helps us continue to grow and expand spiritually. Why? Because Truth and Love are healing to the human mind.

But illusions of sin will hold us in a prison of blind belief and misery. And can eventually destroy our bodies.

When we make a mistake we can get hurt, but when we are conscious about making a mistake without condemnation or guilt we can get up and continue to live, prosper and grow in happiness with a positive, grateful attitude. We can recognize it was something to learn. Mind was not conscious and balanced with a positive attitude, intelligence, truth, and love. Not balanced in the FourSquare.

Love heals us. Let us give each other and ourselves the gift of release from the past and guilt for we are brothers and sisters of Spirit.

Everything is connected in one as Spirit which we are…. Spiritual Life, Spiritual Mind, Spiritual Truth and Spiritual Love.

In the hope you find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“We are in the Eternal and It is in us.”

Eugene Fersen

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It hurts so good!

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It’s all happiness to know that anything that was horrific in the past is gone. It’s logical. Yeah, we tend to cling to evil in memories and perceived injustices that others must pay for.

It’s the ego that clings to the illusion that the past is still now because it serves a purpose. The past is a place to lay blame for our pain and disappointments. For our wounded self-esteem.

The ego seeks retribution for offenses. Seeks vengeance. And even though we want to place blame on someone else, it returns to us as guilt. And because of guilt, inner condemnation, the ego demands vengeance on ourselves!

Yet how could we experience guilt without our own alliance with the past and with the ego?

How do we escape this vicious cycle?

These are questions we can ask ourselves to begin to be conscious and sane, instead of circling in the past, bringing it to the present with guilt and repeated thought patterns.

In the present moment, in the Silence, we can recognize our freedom and Inner beauty. We need only make a small effort, spiritual intent to pause, take a deep breath, come to the moment mentally and be silent.

And a wave of gratitude can lift us into a higher level of consciousness and energies that brings us more freedom from the illusions of the ego. And we are happier.

This tiny step in our attitude and mental intent for Silence in the moment offers freedom. And the Great Law helps us expand and you can actually feel Universal Life Energy physically and/or mentally. You are communicating with The Universe!

In that instance is peace and love. The Truth is constantly now.

In the hope that you find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“Remember that every thought returns to you soon or late, vastly increased, and that for every evil of wind you sow, you will inevitably reap the whirlwind.”

Eugene Fersen, Science of Being.

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Your potentials for 2026

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Hoping for You and your Loved Ones

and All Humanity

Healthy, Enlightening and Successful Year and Always

If you are looking for a fresh start in your life, this #1 year, 2026, has the energies to boost your courage to start anew!

2026 = 2 + 0 + 2 + 6 = 10/1

In sacred numerology #1 represents Source and the Universal Great All, of which we are part. And communication is emphasized to facilitate unity ….. communication with Source, our Higher Self and with each other.

There may be renewed emphasis on taking action for the greater good of humanity due in part to the increased energy boosting communication on deeper and more comprehensive levels.

Individually this year will help us refresh and update our communication skills, remembering optimism is key for inspiring ourselves and others. We have the opportunity to communicate not only with our Higher Self through intuition, but also with Source Itself in meditation and conscious awareness in the present moment. Some simple practices are shared below.

Number 1 boosts energies for developing our sense of Inner Peace and purpose ….. to develop self-reliance and discipline. No more clicking into pop-culture opinion sites, rather it’s time to recenter within to our Inner Love and respect for ourselves and others.

When we respect and recognize the beauty and Love within others that love and respect is reflected back to us even when others are not conscious of it. This encourages others to do the same and develops our communication skills.

Number 1 is a masculine, Yang, energy that will be felt by everyone. And since it is the start of a new 9 year cycle it’s an opportunity to bravely step into infinite potential!

I am so happy to share some practices for You to get your optimistic juices flowing, while keeping you calm and centered even when things get loud and hectic.

🌞 A morning practice to help you get ready for the day: The Star Exercise. Simply stand with arms and legs stretched out into a star position with hands cupped up to receive Universal Life Energy, breathing deeply. This simple exercise is physical communication with Source. You can feel the Energy and be inspired! I do this exercise after I awaken in the mornings and as I fall asleep in bed.

🌙 An evening, soothing practice to wind-down to help you release any challenges you may have faced and reestablish inner peace: Relaxation and Silence. Pause. Take some deep, slow breathes and relax physically. Relax your thinking and let thoughts go and pass, until silent.

The uniting energies of #1 helps us become more aware of Self and I am, a divine expression of our unity with Our Father.

This I am practice is a verbal Self-consciousness communication with our Higher Self and connection to Our Father. It’s a Declaration of Truth that sinks into our subconscious and returns to consciousness to restore you for new beginnings:

🌞🌙“I am indissolubility connected to the Eternal and I am an Individualized Ray manifesting all the same qualities of Strength, Wisdom, Truth and Love. I am Spirit manifest.”

Remember to be patient with yourself this year, knowing that within you is Divine Love. And share that Love with everyone you meet.

You can see a spark of Light in the eyes of someone when you approach them with gratitude and ask questions like: What’s been the best part of your day? What is your most inspiring interest? Or gives you the most joy? What are you most grateful for, if you are willing to share? What is your greatest creation? And why? ….. Ask why for expanded connection, communication and insight.

The illusion of Love is easily spotted and derails Truth in communication and circles to guilt, so contact your Inner Love and Truth before you intent to communicate and inspire both another and yourself!

And most of all, I hope for You and All of Us this year that we seek, find and remove barriers within ourselves that we have built against Truly communicating with Our Father, our Higher Self and with each other. And the means to do so has always been within Yourself!

May You experience Peace Always, PortiaSLB

“LOVE IS THE ONE THING WHICH CAN NEVER BE BOUGHT. That is why it is really precious and that is why we should never be ungenerous with it, because there is always enough for us to give.”
Eugene Fersen, Science of Being, page 28.

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Witness the End of guilt

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We sometimes feel very guilty and it hurts our heart! No matter how hard we try it’s usually difficult to forget about because it circles and returns.

But we can witness the end of guilt within us.

The Truth of It

The egotistic, human mind is attracted to guilt! Many of us believe we should feel guilty because we blame our self. But guilt, blame, shame are conditioned expectations programmed in the subconscious by long standing beliefs.

We are programmed to expect guilt and choose guilt over forgiveness and release. Even when we blame someone else, it returns to us like a boomerang and it attracts more blame and feelings of guilt.

The ego thrives on guilt, using guilty thoughts and emotions to ensure its survival. Survival at all costs, even at the cost of our happiness, health and life.

However, guilt is a belief of the ego and just by taking a step towards truth, acknowledging that guilt is a belief, it begins to leave us.

Guilt is not Truth or else it would be never ending and there would be no happiness. Truth begins to free us of the burden of guilt.

Truth is eternal. The Truth is we are made of Love…It holds us together, our cells, mind and emotions. Love within us is in a state of harmony and doesn’t even see guilt because it is not a loving quality. Guilt is an illusion and doesn’t exist in Love.

Love does see Truth and attracted to Truth, but not guilt. Love has no guilt in it, but fear does. And fear is attracted to guilt, but not Truth. Fear has no love in it.

The ego is attracted to guilt. It urges us, demands us, expects us to choose guilt because of belief in it, blame and fear.

You can choose to release any temptation of guilt, by seeing the truth of what guilt is, by letting it go, releasing it to the Light of Truth and Love. Guilt is of the past. The past is gone, now is all there is.

But if you do ever feel guilt rise up into your consciousness

Feel the sensations of guilt in the body, usually as twisting in the stomach area. Just feel without judgmental analysis. Those sensations of guilt will eventually run out of your body. The feeling served a purpose in helping you become conscious of something to release for your own benefit and the betterment of all. Thus you can release guilt and blame and focus instead on gratitude, Inner strength, intelligence, spiritual integrity and love.

Love Truth and you Love yourself, for You are the Lightbearer of Strength, Wisdom, Truth and Love. And you are free and wise to choose Peace and happiness rather than deserving of guilt.

You can witness the end of guilt. And be the witness of the Power and Love that You are.

In the hope You find Love close at hand, PortiaSLB

“Our conscious self must learn the lessons of Love. Our Higher Self does not need to learn it. Our subconsciousness all the time emanates hatred into our consciousness. It has no Love in it.”

Eugene Fersen, Aphorisms of The Lightbearer, page 148.

Opportunities in Karma Excuses

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Opportunities for change

There are things we would like to change about ourselves, like being a chronic worrier, nervous, sickly, obese, unlucky in relationships, not good enough …… and the list goes on. And we can blame it all on karma. But we can consider such conditions as notices for opportunities to improve!

The ego likes to place blame elsewhere to avoid taking responsibility and doing anything about it.

In order to overcome any difficulty we must first become conscious of the subconscious payoffs, being a victim, guilty, superior, so we can take steps to outgrow it.

Within your willingness, without arrogance or expectations, in this opportunity is your acceptance of your natural state of harmony.

So consider this paradigm to outgrow negative egotistic difficulties:

Be conscious and aware of thoughts, emotions, especially the payoffs. There are payoffs for being stuck in negative traits, even those that we don’t want, like avoidance and procrastination, escape or the need to be right! We can be willing to look at those payoffs honestly and feel them completely right in the moment without being attached or taking them personally! Relax. Do not claim them as being yours or who you are! Instead, notice them without attachment and let them run out.

Negate any negative egotistic thought emotion or payoff that does not serve the better good, like, “I can never change this. It’s too hard. Takes too long. Is too difficult.” Mentally say something like: “Get behind me. I have outgrown this condition.” And throw it in a mental trashcan.

Contact Source. You are of Divine Harmony called Source, The Great Law, The Great Principle, Universal Life Energy, God, whatever you want to call IT. And anything is possible! Therefore, make the Mental Contact with Source to help you.

Make Declarations of Truth, like “I am One with Source, always connected and have all the same FourSquare qualities of Power, Intelligence, Sincerity and Unconditional Love.” Let the thought and feeling enter your entire mental and emotional being ….. into your Heart and Mind, and spread into your body and each cell, cleansing, purifying and multiplying.

Put your heart and passion into what you naturally are with powers of the FourSquare. In other words be enthusiastic, intelligent, sincere and Loving, focusing on these and manifesting them in your life choices as you become what you want.

Be compassionate and reach out to help others, especially those with similar opportunities. We all have the right to our karmic density. And serving humanity also serves Source and yourself.

These are simple Self-love steps and completely doable! Do them over and over as they become what you are.

Remember you attract and manifest what you are!

If anyone of us can do it so can You!

For more revealing info kindly link to: Outgrowing Negative Karma

In the hope You find Love close at hand, Portia SLB

“It is in this basic respect that Universal Life Energy becomes of invaluable assistance.”
Eugene Fersen, The Fundamental Principles of Science of Being, page 325.

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